When bullying gets in the way of your fairytale.

I am different, everyone that has ever met me will say this at least once after I have entered their world. And different is good.
It's actually pretty darn cool!

Today my fear of different has taken a turn.

When growing up, I was called names, got picked at, bullied and felt displaced in life numerous times. Many times I was the stronger one and decided to ignore, many times not. That's when I became nasty, not with physical , but verbally.
I was not only protecting myself from the negative influence, growing up in an all white society, but also protecting my sibling and those that may come after me.
This has been my life, the life I have learned to live and bloom in. Becoming only who I truly am, through the guidance of an amazing upbringing and the love received by others that meant me no harm.

Today this thought shifted.

After talking briefly with my prince, my mom had informed me about his misbehavior in school and how one reaction changed the reaction he gave a school mate.
Disappointed, but not in disbelief, I had managed to talk to him and heard his side if the story.
Under many tears and crackle long voice, he explained the situation, and admitted that his reactions were wrong.
Yet for me, that will change nothing in the eyes if the negative influence in his life and the infliction that come with like aged children in this all white society.
Being called names, getting mistreated and disrespected because of skin color and ethnic background was not okay while I was growing up in this town, and is defiantly not okay two decades later. Especially knowing that these very children are the offspring if former school mates.
Not okay!

I am sad and home sick. Wishing I were there to protect my prince. Guiding him through this tough and troublesome age, knowing exactly what he is going through.

I could go on and on.

I will end this here. My brain vomit has come to piece with sharing these feelings.

"You might not like what you see, the color of my skin, the features of my ethnic background, the height that I have inherited , but you WILL RESPECT ME! " -Unicorn



-a unicorn reflection

The total chaos ends up facing love

I Fell in love with fear ,
when I first heard about you

I fell in love with change ,
when you sculpted my body from the inside out.

I fell in love with music ,
when this became another connection.

I fell in love with respect,
when I started to fight for you.

I feel in love with love,
when I finally met you






-a unicorn reflection

Unicorn reflection Dec.29th,201

Sorry for the delay and the update of how my ceremony went. I'm gathering all the footage from that day as the day continues and hopefully shortly before the new year, I'll be showing you the images of my very own commitment ceremony. 

One thing I must say, is that it was defiantly very inspiring, tons of tears and smiles and always full of love, surrounded by loved ones. 

For now, this is my most recent work <3 Enjoy 

2 days ...what a grand countdown!

For those of you that have been following me and reading the short moments in my life, I would like to take this moment to thank you.
There will be so much more to come. Please stay tuned.

For those individuals that have been with me from the moment I opened my eyes,
I am blessed and grateful.

I could have never done it without your inspiration and love over the years.
The day is soon to come where I leave my past behind,
opening a brand new door,
new experiences,
fresh colors on a blank canvas.

December 19th,2012 today I share:

Nature's beauty

A warm summer's day.

Birds chirping

Bees humming.

The scent of sweet flowers

With the breeze that softly touches my skin.

I lay on a blanket.

My eyes are shut, 

My thoughts drifting.

A butterfly lands on my hand.

I slowly open my eyes, 

Witnessing natures beauty.

Then I think of you.

You may not be a butterfly,

Yet you are in deed nature's beauty.

 The outside, is a hard shell.

 The inside, fragile like a butterfly.

The beauty is all I see.

No one can take this from me.

This makes for another beautiful summer's day,

because I thought of you.

Walking on a rainbow

If I were ever to walk in your shoes,

they would be magical red.

With sparkles and a bow.

Maybe a little heel.

Not too high though.

Comfortable, yet cute.

Then on the other hand,

I'd pass...

My Birkenstocks take me where I need to go

And magic is where my feet take me and the rainbow I walk on

-a unicorn reflection

Use the source cautiously

When I start to imagine…

A walk in the park,

Talk for hours,

A candle light dinner,

Aprilshowers

Taking pictures together,

Watching the sun wink good bye,

Receiving little presents as a thought,

Doesn't it all sound so right?

Calling to say "sweet dreams",

Messages to say say "hello",

A kiss for the sweetness,

A hug so I won't go.

All of the above only happens in a quiet moment…

…. when I start to imagine.