When bullying gets in the way of your fairytale.

I am different, everyone that has ever met me will say this at least once after I have entered their world. And different is good.
It's actually pretty darn cool!

Today my fear of different has taken a turn.

When growing up, I was called names, got picked at, bullied and felt displaced in life numerous times. Many times I was the stronger one and decided to ignore, many times not. That's when I became nasty, not with physical , but verbally.
I was not only protecting myself from the negative influence, growing up in an all white society, but also protecting my sibling and those that may come after me.
This has been my life, the life I have learned to live and bloom in. Becoming only who I truly am, through the guidance of an amazing upbringing and the love received by others that meant me no harm.

Today this thought shifted.

After talking briefly with my prince, my mom had informed me about his misbehavior in school and how one reaction changed the reaction he gave a school mate.
Disappointed, but not in disbelief, I had managed to talk to him and heard his side if the story.
Under many tears and crackle long voice, he explained the situation, and admitted that his reactions were wrong.
Yet for me, that will change nothing in the eyes if the negative influence in his life and the infliction that come with like aged children in this all white society.
Being called names, getting mistreated and disrespected because of skin color and ethnic background was not okay while I was growing up in this town, and is defiantly not okay two decades later. Especially knowing that these very children are the offspring if former school mates.
Not okay!

I am sad and home sick. Wishing I were there to protect my prince. Guiding him through this tough and troublesome age, knowing exactly what he is going through.

I could go on and on.

I will end this here. My brain vomit has come to piece with sharing these feelings.

"You might not like what you see, the color of my skin, the features of my ethnic background, the height that I have inherited , but you WILL RESPECT ME! " -Unicorn



-a unicorn reflection

The total chaos ends up facing love

I Fell in love with fear ,
when I first heard about you

I fell in love with change ,
when you sculpted my body from the inside out.

I fell in love with music ,
when this became another connection.

I fell in love with respect,
when I started to fight for you.

I feel in love with love,
when I finally met you






-a unicorn reflection